UPDATE:
My day yesterday was a rough one that i know all moms go through at some point. I have these days often lately, but last night, i was thinking and even though I have to work alot, I do want to say that I am very blessed to spend the moments that I have with Lily. She is very healthy and we could be in much worse circumstances, so while I can't exactly change the lemons right now, I must make lemonade! :)
First of all, if you are at a Stay-at-home mom, count your blessings.
Most of you know that I work full-time against my ultimate will, but financially, our family would not be able to have the things that we do if I did not work. It's just hard.
It's really never been an option for me not to work..even though I tried to come up with ways when LIly was small for me not to work. Nothing seemed to work out.
I am really blessed with good childcare for Lily.
Grant it, Lily has done pretty good in the past not crying when we leave her, but for the past couple of months, it's been rough. It's just hard.
This morning was no exception. As soon as we walked in to daycare, she started crying and really crying, hanging on to me and refusing to let go. Some days she pleads wanting to go with us.
It is the hardest thing for me to leave her crying and usually I won't, but today, she wouldn't stop so I did. I know that she always stops crying after we leave, but that doesn't help me a lot. It's just hard.
There is no solution. Prizes, rewards, nothing seems to work..She has been on this schedule since she was 10 weeks old, so why she still cries I'm not sure. However, she doesn't cry every day, but those bad days are the ones i remember the most. It's just so hard.
I am thinking of putting her in preschool earlier maybe next year when she's 3 almost 4 with the hopes that she will be excited about school and won't cry. Any suggestions?
When I am not working, unless it is necessary, I do not leave Lily and it's because I am away from her over 9 hours every week day. I am missing her life, the main part of it. It's just hard. People tell me I should leave her on the weekends but they don't see that I leave her plenty, more than plenty.If I didn't leave her every day, then I'm sure there would be times when we would be excited about leaving her. I know I am not the only working mom, but dang, this is just hard.
well, it's more than hard, I despise it..and the bad thing is there is nothing i can do to make it better.
Guess, it's just always going to be hard.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
It's just hard...
Posted by Emily at 9:35 AM
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I totally understand......When Jancie first started daycare, she cried for about 10 days. But then she was okay. But this summer she has cried some when I left her at my mom's or my granny's house.
I definitely think that Lily would benefit from preschool. Jancie has learned so much in her class.
Does she cry when you leave her at your mom's house?
That sounds like my life. I have to work. My husband I have a small business. It takes along time to build up your own business. So we were really relying on my check. When we finally started breaking even, the economy went down. Mary-Kate has started crying when I try to leave her a daycare. Even though I am a teacher, I don't get 3 months off. Big misconception. I work most of June and all of August. I pay for her to go to school whether she is there are not. July is my only time off, but I have to take professional development classes. So Mary-Kate goes to daycare a few days a week in the summer. She is moving up to a big girl room and she is afraid of the teacher. I know about the guilt. It is awful. I don't like to leave her on the weekends either for the same reason you mentioned. It is HARD! I don't like it either.
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